So I just watched Fireproof with the girlie and the 'rents. Good movie. Stiff acting and way too formal writing, but still good movie. I really enjoyed the message within...and I do have to say it's appropriate for me as well with my aspirations being what they are now.
It's no secret that I'm ridiculously in love, that I'm crazy about Molly. But I need to keep in my head to put God first, and to get my life straight before I try to start a family. I need to remove all stumbling blocks in my life. I need to deal with my frustrations, accept my weaknesses, and always remember to lift up everything to God and put my life in His hands. I want so badly to undo the damage that I've caused to my soul...I don't want to be that man anymore.
God, I pray that I can be the man I need to be: for me, for her, for You.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Back in Blog
So gosh...what's it been since I blogged something. Must be a few years now since I closed down my LJ.
What can I say? Life is good. I have a beautiful girlfriend who loves me, a job, that while isn't the best in the world, provides me with enough money to get by, great family, and most importantly, I have my faith back.
Life is good.
I took Molly to the parkway on Friday. We walked for a little bit, sang for a bit longer, and cuddled against the backdrop of the Virginia mountains. I could not imagine having a more perfect time. She told me she loves me, right as the first calm shadows of night began to drive away the last rays of sunshine. I'll never forget the sight: her eyes searching mine for response, her face soft with the fading light, the river flowing soundlessly behind her and the mountains standing behind even that...and the sound of her voice saying, "I love you" is something I'll never forget.
Isn't she beautiful?
It's been years since I've been happy. No matter how well my job or friends and family were going it just never seemed to be enough. I had never felt whole. My world was a thousand different justifications for my sin and another thousand reasons why my life wasn't worth living. But my God, You were with me through all of it, even though I was angry with You and didn't want to acknowledge Your presence in my life. I'll never have the words to express just how sorry and disgusted I am with myself. Thank You my Lord...thank You for all the opportunities and the blessings that You've given to me.
What can I say? Life is good. I have a beautiful girlfriend who loves me, a job, that while isn't the best in the world, provides me with enough money to get by, great family, and most importantly, I have my faith back.
Life is good.
I took Molly to the parkway on Friday. We walked for a little bit, sang for a bit longer, and cuddled against the backdrop of the Virginia mountains. I could not imagine having a more perfect time. She told me she loves me, right as the first calm shadows of night began to drive away the last rays of sunshine. I'll never forget the sight: her eyes searching mine for response, her face soft with the fading light, the river flowing soundlessly behind her and the mountains standing behind even that...and the sound of her voice saying, "I love you" is something I'll never forget.
Isn't she beautiful?
It's been years since I've been happy. No matter how well my job or friends and family were going it just never seemed to be enough. I had never felt whole. My world was a thousand different justifications for my sin and another thousand reasons why my life wasn't worth living. But my God, You were with me through all of it, even though I was angry with You and didn't want to acknowledge Your presence in my life. I'll never have the words to express just how sorry and disgusted I am with myself. Thank You my Lord...thank You for all the opportunities and the blessings that You've given to me.
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