Monday, May 4, 2009

A Perfect Day

So Molly and I celebrated our 3 month anniversary the other day...we didn't realize it was at the time, but hey, we lucked out anyways. What a wonderful day...

It started off with her having to work to make up some time she took off for her practicum, but I didn't mind because it was 8 hours with her. We had fun talking and joking and me interrupting her work every now and again with kisses, and all in all, it wasn't bad for a work day.

Then we went shopping. I needed some new shirts and, like the dutiful girlfriend she is, Molly helped me pick some out and let me know if I looked good in them or not. I got a couple that we both think look pretty darn good on me and Molly tried on some dresses. One looked gorgeous on on her and I wish she had let me get it for her...but she said it was too expensive. Oh well...

The cool part of the mall trip was yet to come, I figured since we were out there we might as well get Molly sized for her ring, so we went down to Kay's and now I know her size. The salesman offered to let Molly try on some rings, an idea I thought was awesome. You should have seen her eyes light up, that gorgeous smile as she tried on ring after ring, the weight of what we're planning sinking in and hitting her like a ton of bricks. After we left I had a pretty good idea of what to get her, and we couldn't stop squeezing each other's hands. Anyone in the mall looking at us instantly knew that we were wanting to be with each other forever, and with us having looked at rings, that feeling was so powerful, as real as the rings she had tried on and marvelled at.

I decided to suprise her with a nice dinner after our shopping-fest so we went to Red Lobster. We had a great time, eating entirely too much and talking about everything under the sun, mostly about how much we loved each other. I learned some new signs and Molly had this apple-icecream-caramel desert thing that was pretty darn good.

After we had stuffed ourselves we still weren't quite ready to go home, so we went to Doc's gravesite, which has become one of our favorite places to hang out and just relax. She sang to me, we sang together, and we watched the multitude of LU students trying desperately to enjoy one last weekend before finals week and forget all the studying they had left to do. I held her in my arms against the metal bench and she smiled at me. I felt like Superman.

The coolest moment of the night for me was when we got home. We hadn't gotten out of the car yet, but we had parked and we were looking at each other. She has these automatic lights in her driveway that turn on with motion and turn back off after a period of inactivity, and I guess we had been sitting in the car for too long because they turned back off, leaving just the dome light in my car as the only illumination of the scene. It was perfectly timed though, as we had both said, "I love you" to the other...and then the lights dim down. It was like the whole world just faded away and the only thing left was her, my beautiful girl. It's a moment I don't think I'll ever forget, it was just too perfect. We kisses and then went inside...

...or tried to. Somehwere along the way Molly had lost her keys, but that is a story for another time, children. I'm pretending that the day ended in the car there and the next day started with the key incident. I have to get ready for work now. Thank you God for the blessings you've bestowed upon my life, especially Molly, for she is the greatest blessing You could give me outside of salvation.

I'll have some great pictures of us next time, assuming Colt ever finishes them. Farewell intarwebz.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Flame On!

So I just watched Fireproof with the girlie and the 'rents. Good movie. Stiff acting and way too formal writing, but still good movie. I really enjoyed the message within...and I do have to say it's appropriate for me as well with my aspirations being what they are now.

It's no secret that I'm ridiculously in love, that I'm crazy about Molly. But I need to keep in my head to put God first, and to get my life straight before I try to start a family. I need to remove all stumbling blocks in my life. I need to deal with my frustrations, accept my weaknesses, and always remember to lift up everything to God and put my life in His hands. I want so badly to undo the damage that I've caused to my soul...I don't want to be that man anymore.

God, I pray that I can be the man I need to be: for me, for her, for You.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Back in Blog

So gosh...what's it been since I blogged something. Must be a few years now since I closed down my LJ.

What can I say? Life is good. I have a beautiful girlfriend who loves me, a job, that while isn't the best in the world, provides me with enough money to get by, great family, and most importantly, I have my faith back.

Life is good.

I took Molly to the parkway on Friday. We walked for a little bit, sang for a bit longer, and cuddled against the backdrop of the Virginia mountains. I could not imagine having a more perfect time. She told me she loves me, right as the first calm shadows of night began to drive away the last rays of sunshine. I'll never forget the sight: her eyes searching mine for response, her face soft with the fading light, the river flowing soundlessly behind her and the mountains standing behind even that...and the sound of her voice saying, "I love you" is something I'll never forget.

Isn't she beautiful?

It's been years since I've been happy. No matter how well my job or friends and family were going it just never seemed to be enough. I had never felt whole. My world was a thousand different justifications for my sin and another thousand reasons why my life wasn't worth living. But my God, You were with me through all of it, even though I was angry with You and didn't want to acknowledge Your presence in my life. I'll never have the words to express just how sorry and disgusted I am with myself. Thank You my Lord...thank You for all the opportunities and the blessings that You've given to me.